Drowning in Decisions

Its been so long since I last wrote a blog and so much has happened I don't know where to begin. At the moment there is no beginning or end, just the feeling of drowning in the middle of the decisions that I've made.

Other people come into your life and its only when things go wrong that you really think about the relationship with them and try to work it all out as to how you've got to this point. Maybe thats where I go wrong, because I just drift along, and if I get on with someone I spend as much time with them as they want to with me. And when I fall in love with someone, I fall in deeply. This could be described as wearing my heart on my sleeve, or just plain ignorance to what is good for me, and the other person.

But there's only so long I can hold my breath for and I have been for months now. I don't know at this point whether I will fight to get to the surface or if I will continue to hold it, and eventually succumb to the elements around me.

'Drowning in Decisions' 2014